Friday Cometh!

It's almost Friday ...isn't it so bad that ppl all over the world work their butts off and wait ...wait for Friday. Friday ...I can sleep past 8 am without regretting it, that's the major highlight for today ...indefinite sleep planned for tomorrow :) ....ofcourse when I get up, WHENEVER I get up ....every single bit of all that work would still be waiting oh! so pateintly for me ...imagine if it got impatient and got itself done, now THAT would be cool. Back to earth, Tayo!!!

OK, hmmm, maybe I shd go to TGIF, never been ...but it's Good Friday so we shd be sober, right? I AM going to church tho, but TGIF ... hey, it's not like I've got money ....but I shall be going shoe shopping sha :)

Friday ...Thank God for Friday

I'm awake!

...and everything looks better now :)
No need to worry, no men in my head, restoring order and organization to my life ....repairing the things that got messed up yesterday - papers et al ... I will get there ...
Thanx O, for bothering abt me so...but I think I'm done ...with the blues ... or at least I'm getting done ...and tomorrow I'll be a brand new woman (in the making).

Love ya lots
T

Nothing doing

O ...this is for u ...so u'd better be checking it ....I mean I'm writing cos I know u're reading ...so u'd better be reading.
Anyhu ...it's 4:30, I'm hoping and praying that I will get my paper done in time (abt 2 hrs) ...I need that last minute flash of genius ...along with food ...BUT I get to watch HOUSE tonite ...so that's something to look forward to...all these things we take for granted, thank You God.
I realize that I might be crazy ...cos I just had this major shift from the man that used to live in my head ...to another one (who's older!!!!!!how can this happen?!! I mean one even older than ...) but I have assured myself (kinda)that it's a passing fancy, however I do need to lay off men for a while (jeepers creepers) hehe ... but that was bad ...like my mind just needs some guy to think about, and it doesn't matter who the guy is, so long as at some point we approve him as good and godly ...and he's interesting ...
what is my point? I really don't know ...but I don't think my state of mind is very healthy right now. Yeah, and then I need to call and let bobo know that, I no dey do, cos I don't think I'm ok. Yes, I have asked God to help me, big time ... G, I know u yarned about this, yes ..I feel somewhat stupid ...but maybe I'll sleep and wake up and everything will be different. Whaddya think?

No need to yarn

Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within
me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him...By
day the LORD directs his love, at night his song is with
me-- a prayer to the God of my life. Why are you
downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put
your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior
and my God.
"Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one
of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of
your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are
worth more than many sparrows. Do not be afraid, little
flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the
kingdom."
-selected from Psalm 42:5,8,11; and Luke 12:6,7,32.

...interesting ...that at the end of my evening yesterday, I wrote on my wall "His eye is on the sparrow and that's the reason why I sing" ...b/c I do sing ...and then O sent me this today ...thank you O, Thank you God ...

Roses and Thorns

We can thank God for the roses among thorns or we can complain that there are thorns on roses ...what will it be?
Yes, by the end of today, I couldn't even SEE the roses anymore, I could only see the thorns ...and they were drawing blood from my fingers ...actually I think they might have been drawing blood for a few days ....and so in my sad, sorry for my self state ...I emailed E and told him I miss him !!!! I reasoned ...u might as well ...u've thot about him often enuff ...I dunno ...Don't wanna think anymore ...O says not to drink or smoke anything cos the thorns would only appear bigger than they already look ...so just take my eyes and my mind off the thorns and FOCUS ON THE ROSES ....what ARE the roses ...seriously? Yeah, it appears the thorns are always ...in ur face ...but u need to look for the roses, sometimes ...cos sometimes the roses are in ur face too ...those are the good times ...ok, as I continue my journey home ...I'm going to think of the times when the roses have been in my face and thank God for those times ...and look for the roses of today that are in hiding ...I tire sha o...but we're focusing on the good ...cos there's good ...somewhere in all of us :)
sayonara ppl

Since y'all are reading :)

ok, now that the cramps are gone and I don't have any excuses for not doing my work ...I'm back to work ...
so I'm writing a paper on this guy and I emailed him and he says I can interview him Friday (!!!!) cool stuff ... some day some random person is going to call me up and ask to interview me :) and I'll be nice enuff to grant them an interview too ... so once again my daytime minutes are at a premium.
What else ...I'm reading " the case for Christianity" by C.S. Lewis ...b/c recently someone decided to prove to me that God/Bible did not exist and then he went on to say that Christians were all just passive ppl who "could/would not question teh existence/validity of God" ....and I ...was at a loss for words ....why do we believe the things that we believe...I know that God is God ....and I need to be able to explain that ...to anyone who asks ...the Bible says u shd be able to ...
kay, what else ...I bought some "good-hair-day-by-force" products, cos i need to be having a super hair day come friday cos the folks at my job are having "strut ur stuff" day - officially called "research day" ...
That's all, Folks!
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She's back!

I finally made it back here ...of course having my username as Tayotunji(!!!) did not help me to recall it when I forgot. anyhu, today I am apalled at the way I allow myself to be held back by fear of ppl and what they'll think so I very often ...stay on superficial conversations, b/c the real things I could talk about may not be well received ...may come out sounding "off", may make me seem funky ....them deep things ...like God's love, and my love, and the sorry's and thankyous that come from waaaaaaay deep down in my gut ...the things that make the world go round ....but I have tended to be lily-livered, and I have RUN from deepness too often...
so today ...I'm giving up my lily-liver (?!!) and going to get a lion's liver from God himself ...b/c He's not given me a spirit of fear (lilies), but of power (like a lion's), of love - which needs to be expressed, and a sound mind ...which knows when and how much needs to be expressed ....