Can you smell ....

Just got out of lab ... where I kinda had a trying experience
But as my trying experience was getting a bit better, I heard this guy say "Can u smell what the rock is cooking" ..and I'm like ...there are other ppl in the world that say that besides Q and the Rock himself ... that was weird and funny.

Yes ... lab, well, first we had class (anatomy for 2 hrs), towards the 2nd hr I had stopped writing cos I figured if it wasn't making sense there was no point writing it down (ok, I think I also woke up on the wrong side of my bed and that wasn't helping). So we get to lab and we're trying to find the flexor digitorum superficialis which is over the median nerve and the flexor digitorum profundus which is under the median nerve. However, we see and recognize the nerve so we cut up the muscle on top to get under (not a good idea, Dr. J doesn't like it when we cut stuff up) ... and then we cudn't find all these other arteries and nerves ... so I left lab and went out to buy a bottle of wine ...but I couldn't find any so I settled for apple juice :)
Anyway TG almost convinced me that the rest of the entire class was cutting up stuff too, and that they were lost in class (I don't believe her tho) but then Dr J came by and said we were doing good!!
So today's ... kinda better than when it started. I'm glad I didn't leave lab when I was getting frustrated cos I was ready to ... thank you God.
And I did ask God for a hug this morning ... cos I kinda needed even when I got up ... and He did .... the sun is out.

Dr A says there's gonna be genetics on the quiz on wed, we were all kinda hoping that wudn't happen ... so I shall be BGG studying genetics along with the biochem ... and I was even lost in Dr A's class today ... I pray I wake up on the right side of the bed tomorrow ....
All this right and wrong side of the bed ... if I just read what I'll be doing the next day ... it will all be good. Was goign to go to a cell grp from church this evening, think I'm skipping it tho ...

Yeah that was my day ... Chicago on Friday ... Thank you Jesus ... and my lab partner isn't coming on wed cos it's her husband's birthday!!!! .... but she just got married so it's cool.
alright ...need to go get rid of the scrubs and the formaldehyde smell :)

Oh and I was going to tell u abt my pastor - his name is Steve Fry ... probly like 50's, white guy ... but he says funny things ... like
Yeah ...U're invited to "radiate" (some grp thing) where we have brain-cell exploding worship ...
and - when u meet God, like on ur own - when u see God ... u become dismantled ... u'll be like a special effect in a Steven Spielberg movie ...

The sermons are ...tight ... but there's just all these little 'nuggets' that sneak in and make me smile ...
Ok, I'm done.
Later ppl.

Aduragba :)

'YOU WILL SEEK ME AND FIND ME WHEN YOU SEEK ME WITH ALL YOU HEART.' JEREMIAH 29:13

Want to improve your prayer life? Francois Fenelon, a 17th century French clergyman, tells us how. Listen: 'Tell God all that is in your heart, as one unloads one's heart, its pleasures and its pains, to a dear friend. Tell Him your troubles that He may comfort you; tell Him your longings that He may purify them; tell Him your dislikes that He may help you conquer them; talk to Him of your temptations that He may shield you from them; show Him the wounds of your soul that He may heal them; lay bare your indifference to good, your depraved taste for evil, your instability. Tell Him how self-love makes you unjust to others, how vanity tempts you to be insincere, how pride hides you from yourself and from others. If you thus pour out all your weaknesses, needs and troubles, there will be no lack of what to say. You will never exhaust the subject, for it is continually being renewed.
'People who have no secrets from each other never want for subjects of conversation. They do not weigh their words for there is nothing to be held back. Neither do they seek for something to say. They talk out of the abundance of their heart. Without consideration they simply say just what they think. When they ask, they ask in faith, confident that they will be heard. Blessed are those who attain to such familiar, unreserved communication with God'

I like that last part ...sorry I've just been posting like I've been - ki se jomi ... I have had to attend to other matters recently, and the things I've been posting are kinda like the things that are holding me up .... but I like this prayer thing ... got it in my email today ...

for u beautiful non-yoruba folks
aduragba - like "the prayer was heard/answered" or sometin like that
and I actually knew a guy in Lag whose name was aduragba! There was also Olugbo (which means God heard) .... deep sometins .... my atl ppl have cool middle names like that - gbekeloluwa (which means like rest ur heart on God) and adehunoluwa (God's promises) ....

in yorubaland where every next person is tolu (hehe) and sola and nike and tunde ... I think it's cool that some ppl still pay enuff attn to give their kids such deeply cool names. Not that there's anything wrong with tolu or bola ...or tayo .... but ...it's cool to step out of the box ....so I'm looking for names for my children ... but ebi n pami sa ....

Yeah ... and my friend TG who got married recently, I'm trying to convince her to hurry up and have a child so the child can grow and be in my bridal train (see ono, I've become good) ... where we shall all be wearing gold dresses :) cos white is so overdone.

ok, any incoherent statement on this posting ... is attributed to EXTREME HUNGER .... Grab a Snickers bar!
Lara!

If I Knew

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our " Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get, I'd like to say
how much I love you
and I hope we ne ver forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're wait ing for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

At the risk of sounding soppy ... I do love u guys ...and truly appreciate having every one of u in my life ... I couldn't have asked for better friends ... better ppl to go thru life with ... I am truly thankful for everyone of u.

And I think I might have forgotten to mention ... THAT MY MAMA GOT HERE!!!! I'm going to see her in 2 weeks ... and being loyal to meself ... I got a surprise for her ...and I'm CERTAIN that she'll scream ... Ha!


So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

oooh life!

Discerning God's calling usually involves many attempts and failures. You did not arrive on this planet with your calling pre-clarified and your gifts pre-developed. Before Peter walked on the water he said, 'Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.' Jesus said, 'Come.' You are not in charge of water- walking, Jesus is! This isn't some power at your disposal to be used any time you choose, for whatever you please. Before you get out of the boat you better make sure that this is what you have been called to do, and that Jesus is the One doing the calling. God's looking for something more than impulsiveness. Sometimes we make reckless decisions about relationships, finances or work, then rationalise it with a veneer of spiritual language. In most self-help books risk-taking is highly praised. But your risk-taking must be in obedience to God. If you are a 'Type T' (the thrill-seeking personality) you are particularly at risk here. Boredom can make you vulnerable. It can tempt you to solve your problems by making a rash decision that is not in line with God's will. The line between 'thou shalt not be afraid,' and 'thou shalt not be stupid' is one that is easily blurred. Knowing when to get out of the boat and take a risk doesn't just call for courage, it calls for wisdom to ask the right questions, discernment to recognise the Master's voice, and patience to wait until He says 'Come!'


Skilled potters know that as they knead and press clay, it presses back, telling them what it can and cannot become. Amateur potters lack that discernment, as their work product reveals. When you do not honour your raw material, reality becomes your enemy. The word vocation comes from the Latin word voice. Discovering your calling involves very careful listening. If you close your ears and pursue something you are neither called nor equipped to do, you will end up living with a constant anxiety that whispers, 'You are trying to do something God did not tell you to do.' The courage to acknowledge what you are not, brings great freedom; the lack of it imprisons you. Parker Palmer writes: 'You cannot choose your calling, you must let your life speak.' Perhaps you were created to learn, and in learning, to benefit others. If so you will find yourself being drawn to reading, reflecting, writing and teaching. But if you are convinced (or allow others to convince you) that you must be a corporate success for your life to count, you will saw against the grain of your life. 'You must let your life speak.' Philosopher Mortimor Adler speaks of those brilliant minds that have been called to sit at the table of what he calls 'the great conversation of the human race.' Well, guess what? Ninety-nine percent of us will never sit at that table! But we can still hear the 'Well done, thou good and faithful servant..' (Matthew 25:31) that is promised to those who discern God's call, accept it, and give their lives to fulfil it.

When malaria strikes!

Strike back with ...whatever that drug was.
Therefore, since we are justified -acquitted, declared righteous- and given a right standing with God through faith, let us grasp the fact that we have the peace of reconciliation to hold and to enjoy peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, the Messiah, the Anointed One.
2Through Him also we have our access -entrance, introduction- by faith into this grace (state of God's favor) in which we firmly and safely stand. And let us rejoice and exult in our hope of experiencing and enjoying the glory of God.
3Moreover let us also be full of joy now! let us exult and triumph in our troubles and rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that pressure and affliction and hardship produce patient and unswerving endurance.
4And endurance (fortitude) develops maturity of character (approved faith and tried integrity). And character of this sort produces the habit of joyful and confident hope of eternal salvation.

Romans 5 v 1-5 (Amp)

Take your chances

... or someone else will.

What does that make you think of? What chances are you giving up on ... what are you not acting on because you're scared and lily-livered? Or what are you NOT doing and claiming that you think MAYBE God doesn't want you to do that ...

What chances am I not acting on? Ha! Wouldn't you like to know? I haven't been acting on my chances to study like mad and stop sleeping (Sleep is the enemy) hehe! I dunno, yeah there may be some other chances .... but life by itself is so .... all kinds of things, and then ON TOP THAT u wanna be taking some chances ...

What's the point of this story? I'm not sure. I just got out of lab and I just saw the quote and thot I'd share it with all u beautiful ppl ... by the way, if any of you have ever wondered what formaldehyde (stuff they use to embalm dead people) smells like on living ppl, you should come see me.
Stay on top ... and remember that sleep is the enemy :)

Later

Elizabeth

... met her today, she was really old, didn't have any teeth, small statured ... and then the three Tiffanies and I proceeded to remove her skin ... she's my cadaver ...I'm o' be with her till December ...and we started taking off her skin today.

I thot it wud be really freaky, but it wasn't really, some ppl had a cadaver that was green ...I didn't ask why ... but we covered her face while we were taking off her skin because it just felt better to have her face covered... yes, so classes officially started ...

On a lighter note ... was talking to my camerounian friend DJ ...and I'm talking,
me:shebi u said blah blah blah
DJ: what??!!
me: shebi u said blah blah blah
DJ: what??!!
me: SHEBI u said ...
DJ: WHAT is shebi ...

You KNOW I cracked up ... and I cracked up bad ... and then I said ...my bad!
Life is cool ... I heard I got the lowest grade on the embryology section of the last exam!!! But as I no read the thing AT ALL, I no fit yarn ... like I got to the point where I was like ... lemme focus on what I do know .... by the grace of God...
and by the way ...think there's something happening to DJ ... serious hyperness! egabdura

My landmarks

So my landmarks, right .... the hills and mountains that God has led me over and the valleys He's pulled me out of, here goes: It's not in chronological order or anything ...it's just as it comes to my head ... for the most part, it's landmarks in faith ...but in the end, it'll be landmarks in life, I guess

I'm in UI .... fellowship and for some reason they want me to lead Bible study for my dorm ... I'm a jambite, none of the other ppl in my fellowship that live in my dorm are jambites ... it just feels unfair ...I mean, some of then are in their 3rd year, wetin I wan say to them? So I'm worrying my pretty little head ;) and I go to church on Sunday .... and I get to read Jer 1v7 which says: do not say I am only a boy, u will go wherever I send u and do whatever I ask u to do ..... after that I no fit yarn ...we had Bible study ...and I led it.

Then I had to get a visa to come to yankee ... I went for the interview, but I did not have an I-20 and I wanted an F-1 visa (that's funny, right?) .... but guess what? I got it. It's a long story ...but I got it.

Before I went to LU, while I was still in Nig o, y'know I was kinda scared abt leaving EVERYTHING and coming here ... I was going straight to school, they had lost my aunty's address in Buffalo, so it was strictly me and God ... and I prayed, many many times .... that I wud have a good roommate, one who I could truly be friends with .... and while yeah, the girl and her alarm clock vexed me like crazy in freshman year .... that friend/roommate that I asked for has become one of the very very best friends I have in the world .... and I'm thankful (hol ya head, no let it swell).

Landmarks .... this man told me that int'l students do not go to medical school ...but we're in ...me and ono, og, jubril, tinu, tracey, kimberley ...we all got in .... thru many diff miracles ... and the impossible becomes possible once again.

When I had to tell George Bush that I no fit .... it was not working for me ... and I told God ...that I wanted to ...but this my liver was failing me ...and I asked for help , someone to hold my hand while I do the deed ...and it just so happened that Julie drives up and takes me home ...chills and we yarn ... in the end she sits with me while I call and prays with me after when I act like I just cut off my own arm by myself ....

when God somehow convinces me that Isaiah 58v12 is the ... like calling for my life

and when I'm reading Romans and I suddenly truly see that for real o .... NOTHING can separate me from the love of God that is in Jesus ....nothing today, nothing tomorrow ...everything else may come and go .... and they may take everything else from me (whoever they are) .... but they cannot separate me from this love ....

that OMA once said I had this gleam in my eyes as I talked abt God (hmmm), and TR says he considers me the quiet voice of wisdom ... that G has a relationship with God that i respect ... that I have friends like BS ... there's not many friends like BS ... he's one of a kind (ladies, this is a paid advertisement lol) but for real, and he's a fine boy too ... for those of u moving to ATL soon ...better call me

ok ...for now that's the landmarks ...pray, share some of ur landmarks with me ...

Catching up

PPL ...so much has happened the past couple of days ...but it's been mostly good. Not sure when last I was here ... but it was before my near-fatal exam :) That was what is known as a bloody exam ... but I'm thankful ... it was last Friday, and b4 the exam I had told God that regardless of what happened during the exam, I was going to come back and say thankyou ...which I did .... one of them was better than the other .... and we start again next week ...aparently this was just the appetizer ...and God is going to lead me thru the rest of it ... He brought me here ... He'll keep me here ... my money's going to come in on time ...and it will all be well ...
OK so we don't have classes this week, right ... and I had decided that I wasn't going nowhere ...I needed a break from running around (this is how ppl get old) and I wasn't travelling to any of the many places I could go to ... so I'm just ...chilling, right? for a week when everybody goes away ..and then saturday, my ppl in ATL call and say come down for some thing in their church ... there's this prophet guy around who knows God and hears from God and He's calling ppl out and stuff ... now I thot this was really interesting b/c it's HIGHLY unusual to have a free weekend, with a completely free week coming up ...and then get an invite with an all-expense paid trip ;) to this really cool conference-type thing ....so temi-t gets on the bus o (I need to buy shares in greyhound) and I went to ATL.

NOW ATL this wknd .... is one of them times that becomes a landmark in one's life ... times to remember for good ... from the extremely dumb and stoopid jokes, to CHURCH (I'll go into detail in a bit), to good old friendships .... to stuff that happens when u yarn abt the things in ur head that u've always just left in ur head ... it was a good time ... and now I'll tell u all abt it ...

we'll start with church ....awesomeness, man! This ppl's pastor (I stayed with Bayiwa and Biodun), that woman ....hmmmm, kinda person if u're going to her church and u no dey grow ...u get problem. She was just praying, right .... but then it just made me feel that WAY too often we mistreat God ...and treat Him like He's one of us .... I mean, yeah He did come down as a man ...but He's GOD ....the Bible says our God is a comsuming fire ...the fact that He's our friend doesn't change the fact that He's GOD ...many of us don't treat our fathers like we treat God or our grandfathers at least .... there was this deep reverence, like she had seen Him .... and obviously ...He's one that makes u bow b4 Him simply b/c He is ....I don't know ...
and then the prophet man ...he talked about thanking God for our challenges ....b/c it means we get to grow ... and we shdn't sit and complain ...but we shd stay in the place of praise (which is where God dwellls) and then he talked abt landmarks ...the impossibles in ur life that God had made possible, and abt keeping track of these things so that next time u faced an impossible u wld remember that God brought u thru these former impossibles ...and He ain't changing His name or His address ... it was good ...nourishment for my spirit ...beautiful times in his presence (even tho i was tired).

Then the dumbness of my ppl .... these boys they said I shd come into the room to see a pix (sounds shady already, right?) and then the boy closes the door to the room (shadiness!) so he shows me the pix I want to see, boy #2 is outside ...I see the pix and I'm returning to the living room from whence I came ...temitayo opens the door but lo and behold it leads nowhere ....but I just came in thru this door ... and now it leads to nowhere???? HOW??? Ofcourse I'm backtracking into the room fast, I'm in too much shock to pray sef ... I'm about to start a major freak out session ..and then the olodos start to laugh ...ah! but that was a good one, I had to hand it to them ... they had gone to get a comforter, and one of them held it over the door ...so whenI opened the door ...all I saw was the comforter ....not the hallway like I shd have ....majorly freaky ....but this is copyrighted ...so u're not really allowed to do it to ur friends without their permission.

And then the yarns in ur head .... u know it's really interesting that when something is in ur head ...it's kinda cool, u can move it around every now and then (yeah, it's parable time) ...but then when for whatever reason u share it with somebody else ...it suddenly seems to take on a life of its own complete with a personality and all ... I'll let u know how this one goes ... I know I no get liver, but we'll see ...trust in the Lord with all ur heart and lean not to ur own understanding, in all ur ways acknowledge Him and He will direct ur path.

So I'm back in school sha ... and I had a good wknd,
Ono started school
OG is ...being OG, I guess ...
TR continues to be a source of K encouragement ... and he says he trusts me (To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved)
BS set me up! but it will hopefully turn out well, just don't want stuff to get messed up ...
and my mummy's coming!!!!!!! She called me this morning, not sure when yet ...I haven't seen her in 5 yrs so I'm kinda excited abt that ....

I'm in a good place, I'm thankful ....

Oh, and I've had some one liner-type conversations taht made me smile recently, thot I'd share ...

BS: The ball is in ur court
me: we're calling a time-out
(the time-out's still on, we're conferring with the coach)

BA: Howz ur boyfriend?
me: I killed him, howz urs?
BA: He killed himself

Alright ppl .... be good