Absolutely Incredible

Saturday, December 17, 2005

On death and dying

There are FIVE stages of dying.

DENIAL: I'm too young to die. I'm not ready to die (is anyone ever really ready?)

ANGER: Suddenly you are not in control of your life, or death. You have no choice......you are going to die.

BARGAINING: You are willing now to compromise. No use denying it, anger comes and goes so perhaps you can make a deal with God! You are hoping yet and eager to deal!

DEPRESSION: This is such a normal part of the process of preparing to die. Symptoms of terminal illness are impossible to ignore. You are fully aware that death is inevitable. Aware, angry and filled with sorrow and here again the culprit of guilt sneaks in as you mourn for yourself and the pain that this is causing you family and loved ones.

ACCEPTANCE: This comes after you work though the numerous conflicts and feelings that death brings. You can succumb to the inevitable as you become more tired and weakness hangs on. You become less emotional, calmness arrives and banishes fear along with joy or sadness. You realize the battle is almost over and now it's really alright for you to die.

These past couple months ...I feel like I went thru all of these stages ... only I wasn't dying .... I was failing!!! or so I thot. Anatomy exams kicked my butt everytime .... and I prayed and I cried and I studied and I stressed and I got mad at God and then I was sorry and then I told my friends I couldn't talk to them anymore and then I called them back and asked them to pray with me ...and I swear my blood pressure went up, and I thot I would develop an ulcer and I couldn't eat anymore cos the food tasted liek tissue... and my hair started to fall out ...
Like I was watching meself fail and I couldn't do jack abt it .... and then I died ... in peace

HOWEVER ...as all u good Bible-reading ppl ... our friend Lazarus ...the guy had been dead and buried 4 days .... all 5 stages of death plus 10 stages of burial ... but the Lord Jesus showed up ... and all the stages were in vain ....

That's the story with my grades o ... God is showing up .... and things are not what I thot they were .....
Lesson: we walk by faith and not by sight

Friday, December 09, 2005

May God bless you

May God bless you with discomfort at uneasy answers,
half truths and superficial relationships
that you may live deep within yourself

May God bless you with anger at injustice,
oppression and exploitation of people
so that you may work for justice, freedom and peace

May God bless you with tears to shed
for those who suffer from pain, rejection, starvation and war
so that you may reach out your hand to comfort them
and turn their pain into joy

And may God bless you with enough foolishness
to believe that you can make a difference in this world
so that you can do what others claim cannot be done.