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The wise see danger ahead of them and avoid it, the foolish keep going and get into trouble. Think on this ppl ...and avoid it ... don't make foolish excuses to urself abt anything, don't debate with the devil ...don't rationalize ur stupid actions .... By His Grace

I feel good!

Now this is a bit strange because ... yesterday someone I know at Meharry said they are only taking citizens and residents, and the last person I spoke with at Vandy said if I don't get in I shd retake the MCATs cos they had many applicants with really high scores this year(mine were just alright).
So I was thinking ...in 5 yrs, ideally where would I want to be ...and I'm thinking - I want to either be an MD or be on the way to becoming one ...so Q is how bad do u want it?
Bad enuff to retake the MCATs and reapply???? Just incase I don't get in cos Vandy hasn't yarned yet.
Bad enuff to study with my heart, b/c I'm working for something I want ...
bad enuff to give my money to AMCAS for the third year running (man!!!)

I'm just really grateful to God ...that I'm not feeling all sad and stuff ...and I'm putting all this up here ...so if at some point in the future I get depressed abt the fact that I just might not be getting into med sch this yr, I can come back and read this ...and remember a time when I was not depressed abt it :)
In the mean time ...b/c God has mercy on me ... I actually got up this morning and did some work! and it felt so good, so with God's help that I need like crazy ...I'm going to require the best of myself regardless of what it is I'm doing ... no more ten page papers that I write and I have no clue abt its contents, no more nonsense ...if I'm here with the MPA for the next year, by God's grace I will do my best ...and I will keep shadowing Dr. Z ... and I will retake the MCATs, (but man I have to register now) phew!!! I'm just really grateful to God that this does not feel as terrible as I would have imagined ... I can handle it ...b/c of God ..and maybe I'll even apply for the MD/PhD!!! I'm just thankful that I'm not down in the dumps abt this ...ofcourse I shd carry out an extensive evaluation of myself ...to be sure that this whole MD thing is what I want ...before I go on another round with AMCAS. It is well with my soul ... b/c God holds me together...and BGG I'm going to LU tomorrow :)

React with class

ok the idea is that regardless of the situation, we react with class; no temper tantrums, no four letter words, definitely no tears, no stalking off in anger, no being in a bad mood all day ....regardless of what the beautiful ppl at T-mobile say or do ...My name is Temitayo, I have cause to be joyful ...ofcourse I also have cause sometimes to be in a RAGE ...but there's always cause to rejoice, it simply depends on which one I'm working with.
It's fine ...everything is fine ...whether or not I get a phone b4 I begin my 12 hr trip to LU ...whether or not anything anywhere ...I will be fine. T-mobile does not have that much power over me ...it's not them so much as the fact that I'm phoneless, and believe it or not, there r actually ppl that want to talk to me :)
BUT I WILL BE FINE!

Pelvic exam

Two words - not pretty.
No, I did not have the exam, I watched the exam and I actually felt dizzy!!! OK, I started shadowing Dr. Z today, and at first she didn't have any patients, so I sat with 2 pediatric residents and she was going over some stuff, like case studies ...and that was pretty cool, I even knew like 2 answers ....
and then she gets a patient ....who needs a pelvic exam, and she goes over the thing on paper with me (which is cool, I like all these things ON PAPER) and then we get down to it ... and I'm kinda standing far off, but she calls me to come see .... so I go see .... and it's just weird seeing INSIDE somebody ... so she swabs and gets cells out, and then we go examine them under the microscope .... but man! I'm feeling queasy bad, I need to sit down, I need some water .... so I go back to the office and sit, I don't know where to find water.

And I start thinking more seriously abt becoming a psychologist, or a biochemist ... take GREs and do something ... cos it wasn't surgery, it wasn't a birth, it was just a 5 min exam ...
then Dr. Z comes back and asks if I wanna see the next pt and she finds me holding my head in my hands ... fortunately she doesn't burst into laughter or nothing, she finds me some water, reports to all the other docs that I don't feel too good after this pelvic exam I just witnessed ... and she says I'll get used to it ... b/c she felt like that after her first surgery (but that was SURGERY)

Oh well, we'll see how this goes .... maybe I'll be taking the GREs after all .... but I hope I can handle it tho .... I still feel like throwing up .... and I thot my prob wud be the pain ... but there was no pain involved today.

And that's today's story.

Plans, plans

I'm planning a double date that includes me :) ofcourse y'all know this is not my regular field (b/c I'm part of the grp) I can hook it up for other ppl pretty easily. Anyhu, here's the plan ...there's this show on broadway -off broadway- mama mia, which I am going to see with/without company BGG, b/c broadway musicals are so cool, and the songs for this show are all by ABBA ... so I'm psyched.
Now, I got my friend RG to come along, she's totally psyched abt broadway shows too ... so if her man wants to come along, we can get OD to come too ...if everyone's free on thursday nite next week (I'm skipping class)
yeah, OD's ... a friend :) nuthin deep tho, I'm not like looking in my future to see if he's in it or anything ...that causes stress. I'm just trying to see a show here ... and for all I know, the guys aren't interested in musicals :) in which case I go with RG .... this is one of those things that will be fun even if I go by meself so .... BGG I is going hehe
Later ppl

Life gets Gooder!

hehe ...gooder, like Gulder the Ultimate :) I crack meself up. Yeah, I've been missing in action, but I'm back (once again) ...I dunno, I don't think the whole daily blog thing works for me too seriously...but I had reasons for taking a break tho.
OK, what's happening ...I have a cold, so my voice is all deep and stuff :)
and I'm going to start shadowing Dr. Z on Friday :)
and O got nominated for this scholarship we were applying for :) I wonder if I shd be bothered by the fact that I'm not bothered that I didn't get nominated, cos I really don't want med sch loans ...but God's got it covered, like everything else
...and we're praying that J gets a good job in Buff
what else ...my babies are gonna graduate soon ...and move out to far away places, I'm happy for them tho ...they're really good children (and one of them says I can use his credit card for whatever I want on my birthday, what more cud a mom ask for?) ...I need to make a big sign/something that says I'm the Valedictorian's mama ..cos one of my babies is gonna be it (I'm not sure which one)
anyhu ....that is the iroyin ni shoki (the news in brief)
Later ppl.