W-E-L-L ....

Lately I'm beginning to see that I am not so different from most people around me - CO5 and ppl can tell u abt my separationist theory ...it doesn't matter that the entire world thinks the world is round ...seriously, what do they know? I think it's oblong .... I just had this deep, deep desire to be different from everyone and everything around me and I kinda grew up with it ...I was like above all the things that made ppl tick (yes, I shake my head at myself) and the things that made me tick were on a totally totally different level ....

BUT since I gave up crack recently :) and I'm beginning to see things more clearly ... I'm understanding and able to identify :) hehe with the things that make my fellow humans tick lol
I thot it was completely ludicrous that ANYBODY would ever buy any kind of clothes cos they were "in" ...like WHO made them in, why do we care what they say ..... and then when they come up w/ a new idea we all just follow like foolish olodos ... just giving examples of my extreme ideas ...

anyhu .... I see me more like the other ppl now :) and it's ..not a bad feeling.

Uncomfortable in my World

Maybe it's not my world, maybe I'm sposed to be somewhere else ...maybe I messed up too many things and I need to straighten stuff out - need to have uncomfortable conversations :) Happy New Year!!!
Yeah, my resolutions are
1) to stop avoiding uncomfortable conversations
2) to TRY to stop laughing at ppl so much

And since I shared these resolutions with the Circle :) I was reminded abt them as I was planning to just ... say nothing for a while and then resume my friendship when it was cool ...but OMA reminded me not to be like that ... so MAYBE I'll be a good girl and talk ...

Can't imagine what I did to make my world uncomfortable .... well, I guess it wasn't just one thing; it was many, many little things and now it's just like ... dear God!!! what shall I do?

Oh well, it's going to be ok right? It has to be .... it just has to be .... righting my world ...man!